This one is going to hurt, but in some ways that’s what these posts are about… facing the pain, accepting it, and hopefully letting it fade a bit.
Sometimes I think the Universe is guiding the damn AI to show me my pain… this is one of those times. I was just trying to get a pretty papercut-style Christmas image, but every single time it gave me a version of this image.
To me, the spirit of Christmas is in children. Their joy at the tree, the stockings, the gifts is one of the most magical things ever.
Before I blew my life up a week ago, I could have spent Christmas with a family. I could have watched a little girl open her gifts and amaze at each one and have the pride of knowing I helped pick them all out.
That future is gone now. I need to accept that and whoa boy does it hurt a lot. That door is closed and I won’t be a witness to any of it. I accept that this was my own doing.
I at least know her Christmas will continue without me, and I’m glad she’ll have those wonderful moments.
I accept that everything happened exactly as it had to, and I am exactly where I need to be.
If you get to see Christmas through the light of a child’s eyes, enjoy every single moment.
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